αℓℓ ι киσω ιѕ тнαт ι киσω иσтнιиg

It’s Crying in our Car Kate Bush Hours! No seriously have you ever experience the sweet relief of a car-cry? I would highly recommend. Oddly enough, I would cry every day, driving home from high school. I wasn’t bullied, I was just melodramatic, as I am now. I’ve been going to the gym lately (whoContinue reading “αℓℓ ι киσω ιѕ тнαт ι киσω иσтнιиg”

ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ

Today’s latent post is a bid towards the general public and everyone… pls stop perceiving me 💖 How do we make sense of the notion that we are constantly under the surveillance imposed by the gaze of the Other over which we have no control. I have no idea how you perceive me, and youContinue reading “ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ”

am i cliché? cuz wut You Do 2 Me is a SHAME

Saw a really incredible show this weekend at the David Kordansky Gallery, Andrea Büttner ‘Grids, vases, and plant beds’ which featured a 32 min video, containing footage and interviews of nuns from the Carmelite Convent of the Precious Blood, located in Dachau. There’s tinges of discomfort, at once feeling like an intrusion of history andContinue reading “am i cliché? cuz wut You Do 2 Me is a SHAME”

ł₥₱Ø₴₮ɆⱤ, ₩ⱧØ ₥Ɇ?

The more that this blog progresses, the more that I have the urge to quit it. ‘What is the use of weekly updates’, I think, when nothing in my life really changes. Is what I write even interesting, entertaining? Feel like I’m writing into the void. Nothing feels certain. I try to stay aloof toContinue reading “ł₥₱Ø₴₮ɆⱤ, ₩ⱧØ ₥Ɇ?”

Аgннннн (тнё $cяёаѫ)

I literally just told [lied to] my therapist today that taking into account the feelings of anxiety that emerge when I’m running late is indeed an effective tool to hold myself accountable to be more on time. And yet I literally just ran to my shift today eek. Had a cute weekend with my friendContinue reading “Аgннннн (тнё $cяёаѫ)”

i’m WRiting This From the bath <3

Sorry sorry for a day-late delay in posting. I was preoccupied with dawdling and doing nothing in which I intended to go to the gym, yet upon realizing that I was rejected from the Dolls Kill position which I applied for, fervently went into job seeking mode. In the meantime I am hosting at aContinue reading “i’m WRiting This From the bath <3”

Give me Whatever People in the 1930’s Were On!!

Aside from my mid-morning run (sweaty!) & zoom with one of my Fulbright recommenders, I’ve spent the majority of today ‘researching’ Weimar Period Germany by watching Babylon Berlin on Netflix for ‘research’. Aside from this scene, the colors are definitely cool-toned unsettling, making everyone’s skin look look very dull and uneven; guess facial yoga &/orContinue reading “Give me Whatever People in the 1930’s Were On!!”

another day, another $$$

So it seems as though the three-month contract is over fr fr. Been actively searching for supplemental income (i.e. instacart shopping.) The nosey in me loves to know what the average person consumes. What are the supplies that nourish, that comfort. Are people lactose intolerant? Where is the alcohol?? How the mind wanders 🤔 NotContinue reading “another day, another $$$”